Alone

So alone.
Desperately searching,
for someplace to hide.
Putting on the mask,
of happyness.
That is tearing me inside.
It makes me want to be alone,
It makes me want to cry.
I just don't want to feel this way,
The way I feel inside.
I can pretend,
to be someone else,
But when the day is done,
I feel just like a mouse,
Searching for a home in an abandoned wreak,
Lost and alone,
a complete reject.

I know I have friends,
and I know i have love.
I know i have something from God up above.
But I just can't see it,
The pain blinds my eyes.
There's something inside,
That covers my lies.
I know what is and i know how its made.
Its a cover of covers that can't be unlaid.
And so as I sit here,
alone and afraid,
Waiting for something to make these covers unmade.
I'll sit here with patience,
And someone will come,
Love me with hugs,
till i cry,
come undone.

Right now so alone,
With no hope left to live,
Wanting to hid yet wanting to give.
I've got one hope left,
that I'll look and I'll see,
that somebody out there is searching for me.