Alone

So alone.
Desperately searching,
for someplace to hide.
Putting on the mask,
of happyness.
That is tearing me inside.
It makes me want to be alone,
It makes me want to cry.
I just don't want to feel this way,
The way I feel inside.
I can pretend,
to be someone else,
But when the day is done,
I feel just like a mouse,
Searching for a home in an abandoned wreak,
Lost and alone,
a complete reject.

I know I have friends,
and I know i have love.
I know i have something from God up above.
But I just can't see it,
The pain blinds my eyes.
There's something inside,
That covers my lies.
I know what is and i know how its made.
Its a cover of covers that can't be unlaid.
And so as I sit here,
alone and afraid,
Waiting for something to make these covers unmade.
I'll sit here with patience,
And someone will come,
Love me with hugs,
till i cry,
come undone.

Right now so alone,
With no hope left to live,
Wanting to hid yet wanting to give.
I've got one hope left,
that I'll look and I'll see,
that somebody out there is searching for me.

Wait.

And as i sit and wait,
I sigh.
I miss you,
I need you.
Somewhere around the corner of the world,
your waiting for me.
My heart is beating,
And i pray,
I pray that you may be waiting,
with your arms at your side and your heart in its place,
waiting for me to come and not being swept into some embrace.
I need your love,
Lord help me wait,
for this new man of joy and grace.

pieces

he has broken my heart in 5 pieces and as i try to pick them he just takes them back and throws them on the ground,stepping on them as he walks towards me with his arms outstretched and when he has kissed my cheek one last time and taken the last part of my heart and stepped on it..he leaves me there, with more pieces to pick up

Blue Skies

Blue Skies bring thankful voices to heaven.

And I am the thankful one.

I am thankful for the day,

for the beautiful joy that God has given me.

Joy to take place of the pain that fills up my blue skies.

My blue skies that will quickly fade away